la-obscuridad asked: OMG, you are so beautiful.

am i really reading this??? omg, why? deceives me.

your blog is so fucking perfect, shit ):

sometimes i think i‘m so afraid to talk to you so i have just pushing you away… i have a fear of looking silly. i can’t act naturally, be myself. my fear is that you find out how much i love you, and you don’t love me back, you know? so i end up leaving you, ignore you, but don’t do it for evil, just can’t control… i love you so much, it’s suffocating me. i want you by my side. i just can’t, i don’t know how to show my feelings … but i repeat, i love you, i love you, i love you so fucking much, don’t forget me okay? you left school, but not my heart *u* so i, so cold and heartless speaking these things, about love, how strange… is a new sensation, but so bad. i’m lost control, don’t know what to do. i remember i was so anxious to go to school because i knew i’ll find you, when i receive the news that you left school ): god, i fell so baaad, so fucking bad, my heart was broken, i was broken inside, but out i kept  smiling, as if the news had not made ​​any effect on me, like “i don’t care about what the fuck he did with his life, fuck”. i thought i was strong enough to endure the pain and keep from crying but i couldn’t stand. left school and came all the way home crying and crying and crying.

never felt this way. i hated the experience.

love sucks.